OK, so Monday, the mission team were all leaving for Mexico….remember? The one I was supposed to be going on? And the whole bummed, I missed it…..this wasn’t the trip for me….blah blah blah….
So, Monday, I’m in the shower (don’t hate, it’s one of the few times I’m alone) and I’m praying for the mission trip (so many weird/odd things to this whole sentence….) but I’m praying for safety, open hearts, success, etc etc, and I suddenly have this THOUGHT:
What IF God DID want me on this mission trip and I backed out because of my FEAR???
Plausible. I am afraid of lots of stuff, failure being only one.
So I continued my prayer with “Lord, I’m so sorry if I messed up, if I failed again….”
I get dressed, go out into the living room to read my Bible and my son’s phone rings indicating a message. I check it (yes, I check it….I’m a nosey Mom) Message is from Hannah who says their FLIGHT HAS BEEN CANCELLED, they are still HERE!
Yes, that really happened!
So I call and find out that apparently there was this HUGE storm where they were supposed to be landing and they may not even be able to get out til WEDNESDAY! What??
So I call Jeff (Youth minister, one of the ones heading up the trip) and he said if I had still been going, it would have been a NIGHTMARE for me because of my job! Everyone going had a flexible enough schedule that they could wing it, I on the other hand had ZERO flexibility in my schedule and it would have been a DISASTER!
{pause}
Seriously.
How MIND-BLOWING is that?
I’m not a failure. I didn’t mess up. I’m good.
…..err……ummm….
I AM very sorry the mission trip had so many problems starting out. Really. But I gotta say a big ol’ YEHAWWWW for God giving me just a little pat on the head and comfort to know I’m not a total screw up.
Sometimes the pictures aren’t always pretty either. HAHAHA!
I love it when God confirms our decisions in such a visible way. Have a wonderful Thursday!
God is so good! I love it when He allows moments of affirmation for us! I believe God still has purpose in this trip for you – they need prayer warriors-ones who are invested to be praying!!
Did you get the photos I e-mailed to you?
Dana, He speaks to you so clearly that it blows my mind. Or maybe it’s just that you do a better job than most of putting yourself in the position to actually listen. It’s so easy to doubt, and to second guess, and to wonder if what we hear is truly His voice. The verse on my blog, Phil 4:8, says “Summing it all up, friends, I’d say you’ll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious – the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse.” And that seems to be a pretty good test of whether it’s His voice that we’re hearing. If it meets those criteria, it’s most likely Him.
I have a favor to ask of you; I need your WordPress expertise. Would you mind going over to my new photo blog and taking a look and tell me what you think? And, could you tell me what I need to do to get the I Heart Faces button to show up in my post? On Blogger, I just copy the code and insert it into my HTML post; when I do that in WordPress, I get a box with an X. It will click over to the I Heart Faces site, but you can’t see the button.
Thanks.. I know you have SO MUCH FREE TIME over there…. not!!! Here’s my site: http://lifebythecreek.wordpress.com/