I know it’s been awhile since my last update, but sometimes I struggle with my inner demons. I think fostering has made me bi-polar. The Jesus-in-me keeps me compassionate and prayerful of you, but the human-….the mother’s heart…-in-me, makes me angry sometimes with your choices. So I struggle within myself. In times of struggle, I just remain silent because I cannot trust myself.
But there’s a lot to update.
He has officially cut 6 teeth now, and he’s working on 2 more! Oh, he’s just the cutest thing with those little tiny baby teeth! He’s discovered real food too and he’s insatiable some nights! LOL He lost all interest in baby food when those teeth came in, and he’s been on solid food for over a month now. I am very particular about his diet because he’s already been through so much, I want him to have the best nutrition I can give him to help his body grow and heal. He loves carrots! He’s also discovered cinnamon graham crackers (my husband introduced them 
) and we’ve made those his special treats.
He’s up to 20 pounds now and growing like a weed! He’s finally filling out in all the right, baby-chubby places. His dr was thrilled at this progress!
He’s walking so much now! He always walks first, then when he falls, he will just start crawling. He can go across an entire room now! The kids call him “Zombie Baby” because of his herky-jerky walk with his arms outstretched either in front of him or above his head. You can see it in his face how proud of himself he is.
I swear, his smile lights up a room.
I have to admit, honestly? I didn’t think he’d walk for a very long time. His injuries were just so bad, I was afraid he’d never recover, and yet…..God has made this absolute incredible miracle and I get to spend every moment with him. I get to see God daily work and move in his little life….healing body and mind. He’s a miracle!
Everyone simply adores him. They play “tag” with him and they all giggle until I’m afraid they will be sick from all the laughing! They even play “hide & seek” with him, but I don’t think they really understand they are only hiding from him and making him find them. But they all enjoy the game and the laughter abounds, so I don’t correct their “game”.
We are planning a HUGE birthday party for him on his special day. After surviving death on more than one occasion, the drs never expected him to make it to his birthday, we are throwing a BIG party for him! He has beat the odds, and his testimony is great!
He really is our little Superman.
I hate that you’ll miss it. I hate a lot of things, but I can’t change them, so I’ll be silent.
We’ve already done his photos and his cake-smash so we can display the photos of his Life’s Journey with us through pictures at his birthday party. I hope one day you’ll see them.
I struggle with so many things as I’m sure you do as well. I hope you find peace where you are. I hope you are able to change your life and make better decisions with the time God has given you.
Praying for you,
The Foster Mom
I think maybe I have a slightly different view of biological parents since we have a “child” who has lost hers. She swears she would have killed herself before she would have hurt them. I wish she knew that not all wounds are physical. Her kids are with their dads. Neither is a believer and that hurts my heart but it wasn’t a good enough excuse to keep their children from them. I’m not sure what I’m trying to say. It’s later, I’m tired, and my heart is feeling broken. I guess I just want to thank you for choosing to “love” the bio dad, in spite of his bad choices. When you do so … you love as Jesus loves! I pray with you … that he will find God and be changed … so that some day, many years from now, if J wants to find his birth-dad, there can be restoration. I want that for my own child and her children and so there is a part of me that wishes it could be true for all broken families … even though for now … the children MUST be protected from the bad choices of those who think they love them.
very sweet post.. what a confusing world we live in! Today I went to see the move Chimpanzee…it is the Disney Earth Day movie…during part of it I thought about you … if you get a chance and have a cheaper theatre to go to…I urge you to go see it!
Oh what sweet photos!!! He is a sweet little bundle of miracles, isn’t he? I think of you all often and pray for you- the impact you are making on these children’s lives will stretch into eternity.