I wrote back in February how I felt like I had lost myself. So I began that journey to find me.
On the first day of my little journey, I took what I was hoping would be a BEFORE picture. I’ve done this weight/diet/exercise thing so much of my life, and obviously, I’ve failed every time, so I honestly thought this time would be just like all the other times: try, fail. Try, fail. Try, get frustrated, hate myself as I dug into that key lime pie and gallons of Pepsi, and fail yet again. It’s a neverending, vicious, evil circle.
But the end result has always been, I hated myself just a little bit more than I did before I started.
So this time, I was trying something a little different. Part of this journey of discovery of who I am, I am also drawing closer and closer to Christ. Part of that journey is an excitement and a longing to become exactly who He created me to be! Somehow, I don’t believe He destined me to be a super-stressed nanny during the day, it pays the bills, but it just doesn’t fill that desire that I believe God placed in my heart for something MORE.
But again, my excuse is always the same: I look like this. How can this go and do anything? I’m overweight, I huff and puff going up my own stairs, and I’m afraid of everything!
And yet……I did it anyway. I went into it with the goal of “I can do this FOR Christ.” I made a goal of 30 pounds by June 7th and no more Pepsi. None. Not a drop. I have smelled it though, and put it down, but I did NOT drink it! YAY ME! I had a fridge full of Pepsi too when I gave it up, so it wasn’t like I didn’t have tons of temptation! LOL I went from 100 oz of Pepsi a day, to water.
No, that is not a misprint. That is sadly the amount. I know it’s shameful.
And, I have been feeling little changes in my clothes, but when I look into the mirror, I see no change. I see the same ol’ me. Same big ol’ face. Same big ol’ body.
I weighed 2 weeks ago and I am down………ready for it?
27 POUNDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY ME!!!
So, yesterday, I decided to take another photo just to see if I could tell any difference. No one else has said anything (NOT ONE PERSON!) so I figured, yet again, I have failed. And then TODAY, I put them side by side in Photoshop.
THIS is what I saw: (cover your eyes if you are easily spooked)
I SAW A DIFFERENCE!! It’s subtle, but it’s a START! It’s an IMPROVEMENT! There is PROGRESS!!
I’m on my way! I’m excited!
And probably completely insane for posting my mug on my blog!! UGH! But it’s a start. I’m not done. I have 3 pounds to meet my goal and about 2 weeks to get there! But I’m trudging on!
Be kind, and try something totally insane!
Dana, the incredibly shrinking woman 😉