Gosh, I don’t even know where to start this, so I’ll just jump on in here…

I’m all a’twitter in my Spirit and I just have all this STUFF flying around in my head. I feel like just grabbing one at a time and nailing it down.

I’ve blogged before about my work out experiences. I’m a fat chick in a skinny-chicks world, but I’m THERE. And because of this “knowledge” I know that LOW IMPACT stuff ain’t gonna cut it for my big fat derriere. If I go in everyday and do just the BARE minimum, there will be NO change. If I go in and do ONLY what is required of me, there will be no lasting effect. I have to go in, get down and dirty with it, and go HIGH IMPACT. Only HIGH IMPACT is going to give me some results. I have to get SERIOUS, get NASTY, and APPLY myself, APPLY the things I’ve learned from my cute little trainer guy, and GO WITH GUSTO! If I don’t….I’m wasting my time.

I don’t want my flame of Christianity or my faith to be a little tiny candle burning, do only what is required of me….say that little prayer to keep me out of hell….I don’t want to do the BARE minimum, I want it ALL! I don’t FEEL a little tiny lighter flame, I feel that BIG BONFIRE! The kind that consumes mountains of wood! Throw-entire-TREES-in-there BIG FIRE! I don’t have a LITTLE excitement, I have this CAN’T-SIT-IN-MY-SEAT/CAN’T-KEEP-MY-MOUTH-SHUT/CAN’T-QUENCH-THIS-FIRE kind of excitement! Wiggle in my chair a little bit…

I don’t WANT to be IN the world….nothing HERE can satisfy this DESIRE!

1 John 5:3-5:

Loving God means keeping His commandments, and His commandments are not burdensome. For every child of God defeats this evil world, and we achieve this victory through our faith. And who can win this battle against the world? Only those who believe that Jesus is the Son of God.

WHOAH! OK….seriously…read that again. I’ll wait.

That’s just got me FIRED up! I LOVE it! It’s really funny….I’ve started this blog and had it in my drafts til it’s done, and tonight Brad took it the rest of the way! I just sat there in AMAZEMENT!

I DO NOT WANT MEDIOCRE! I do not want “normal” Christianity! Oh come on….I’m talking about what so many people seem to THINK Christianity or RELIGION is: go Sunday morning, sing the appropriate songs, bow your head at the appropriate times, shake hands with people with that fake smile plastered on your face, and then leave for Sunday-after-church brunch. Go ROAST! But actually TAKING that knowledge that they just SAT through, DIDN’T actually LISTEN OR ABSORB, and not apply it at all into their everyday LIVES! COME ON! THAT is the kind of religious, “Christian” crap that has given us a bad name for SO long!

(I just said crap….and Christian crap at that….) ….now that I’ve offended the imaginary people that read my blog….. ๐Ÿ˜‰

You can’t be IN Christ and IN the world at the SAME TIME! You cannot be IN the Spirit and IN your sin, in the world at the SAME TIME! You can’t BE in 2 places at once! It’s like a LAW or something! You HAVE to get rid of the crap holding you down, keeping you back from fulfilling all the GREATNESS that God has for you!

I think that’s what frustrates me SO BADLY teaching the Youth!! I see these kids OVER AND OVER, I give them the KNOWLEDGE they need to do what is RIGHT, to make a DIFFERENCE in their lives in Christ, and they continually THROW IT IN THE CRAPPER! “Thanks, but….I like ” “I’d rather ” EXCUSE EXCUSE EXCUSE!! Some of these kids I’ve had for YEARS! You HAVE the knowledge, NOW USE IT! I’m tired of the EXCUSES as to why you can’t/don’t want to, you’re either IN IT or you’re NOT! I want to SHAKE some of these kids! I think Brad said it best tonight when I heard him say to “get your head out of your butt!”

….uhhhh….errr….it WAS in context……and RIGHT ON! I wanted to shake his hand! There’s NO excuse! You HAVE it! Now USE IT! APPLY IT!

I was drawn to 2 Timothy for this blog….and WOW….God was RIGHT on….

2 Timothy 3

But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of Godโ€” having a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with them. They are the kind who worm their way into homes and gain control over weak-willed women, who are loaded down with sins and are swayed by all kinds of evil desires, always learning but never able to acknowledge the truth.

I feel like SHOUTING! That’s just GOD right there!

But the part I want people to remember, to read on a little further:

But as for you, continue in what you have learned and have become convinced of, because you know those from whom you learned it, and how from infancy you have known the holy Scriptures, which are able to make you wise for salvation through faith in Christ Jesus. All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.

I’ve had a week of frustration with our Youth dept…not being effective or being overwhelmed…..I don’t know WHAT it is! But I think God has given me my answer right there: they aren’t going to LEARN it if someone isn’t there to TEACH it. THAT I’m assured of. They are GETTING the knowledge! They are GETTING the scripture! I want their FIRE lit now! So that will be my NEW prayer! Lord, LIGHT THEM ON FIRE! CONSUME them! Holy Spirit SIT on them heavy in the chest until they can’t BREATHE!

OK, that sounds REALLY harsh, but I hope you understand what I’m trying to say. GET UP! GET MOVING! SHOW UP FOR THE GAME AND PLAY!

Brad ended with a story, kind of out of nowhere at all. Didn’t really apply to anything, he prayed, and instead of dismissing us, he told a story. Didn’t fit, he just told it.

He was talking about this vision of God showing him this BIG airline hangar, HUGE, MASSIVE airline hanger. Inside this hangar is this EXPANSIVE SOMETHING that fills the entire space! At these words, the tears started flowing. Something quickened in my Spirit and I started crying. Not like all weepy and bawling or anything….those silent tears that just roll….and I can’t stop them. He said it was covered over entirely with a HUGE tarp so he couldn’t SEE it. He knows it’s THERE, but he can’t SEE it, doesn’t know what it is.

THAT’S it….I’ve been feeling that EXACT thing for MONTHS now! This EXCITEMENT, this KNOWING that something’s coming….God’s preparing me…my family…for SOMETHING and I don’t know when and I don’t know what, I just KNOW it’s there. And THIS time now, is the PREPARATION for it. God is PREPARING us, our hearts, our family…for it. So for him to tell this story, THAT’S IT! I’m not saying we have the same VISION, as in doing it together, but that we are EXPERIENCING the same thing, and that just BLOWS me away. Knocks me off my feet and makes me take a few steps back…and sit down. Gosh, I think I’ve even blogged about it before! HAAA! One of my earlier blogs I think, come to think of it! How COOL is that??

Anyway….I feel like this was all just a bunch of rambling nonsense, but somehow it all applies, you know? I’m in the PREPARATION period…I’m going ALL IN! I’m not wasting my time! I’m staying in my Bible…even through those REALLY hard parts of LAWS, of temple measurements, and robe string colors….and I’m TRYING! I’m NOT falling back, I’m not giving up! I’m staying DILIGENT and READY!

…..did I scare ya? ๐Ÿ˜€ Did it sound like yelling? Cuz in my head, my fingers were YELLING! LOL They were all excited! LOL

OK….so there you have it….maybe I’ll end it with a cute picture that will make you smile and not delete me from your blog rolls…. ๐Ÿ˜‰